JëKë [ Something for nothing ]: January 2005

Monday, January 31, 2005

I'm not the only one ......

......... Hening ........
Terjaga dari tidur gue...... -_-" kembali teringat akan kasihku yg ada disana,banyak banget pertanyaan di otak gue..."sedang apa dia?"...."apa dia inget gue?"... " udah bobo kah dia?"...
aakhh... pikiran ini ga bisa tenang,apalagi seharian ini gue merasa dicuekin..gue merasa kasihku makin menjauh dan menjauh... kembali air mata ini menggenang. ingin rasanya sms in kasihku,tapi gue takut...sangat takut.
pengen nglanjutin tidur lagi udah ga bisa.. yg ada tiap memejamkan mata,gue teringat akan kasihku selalu.ingin rasanya kupeluk erat tubuhnya dan ga akan gue lepas.
sampai akhirnya gue ga tahan akan kerinduan ini. gue putuskan beranjak dari ranjang,cuman bingung mau ngapain. hhhhh..... gue tenggak minuman kaleng,yg semoga aja bikin gue tenang,tapi ternyata malah bikin gue mual n muntah-muntah ga keruan,kepala gue pening.

gue inget kalo hari ini gue kudu patching game protectnya RYL .daripada bete mending gue kerjain aja biar cepet kelar.
inget akan kata-kata tadi siang ..."gue liat elo banyak peningkatan akhir2 ini,meski dulu gue sempet kecewa ama elo,tapi gue yakin dengan peningkatan elo ini elo bakal gue ajak maju.."
peningkatan??
gue ngerasa heran,kenapa dengan adanya peningkatan dalam kerja gue tapi kompensasinya tetep sama aja,gue paling males denger janji-janji belaka.
gue ga mengharapkan imbal balik yg muluk-muluk,gue cuman pengen gue itu dihargai.
gue emang ga mau banyak mulut,yang penting gue kerjain apa yg jadi tugas dan kewajiban gue itu aja,walaupun masalah-masalah pribadi gue sedikit banyak mengusik hari-hari gue,yg penting gue ga ganggu orang laen,n gue akan terus konsisten. hope so ........

Awal bulan ini rasanya hambar banget,jarang banget gue bisa tersenyum n tertawa lepas, yg ada cuman senyuman masam ...udah jelek makin tambah jelek deh tampang gue.. >.<

uhmm... Song for today masih tetep "dalam kesedihan,penantian dan pengharapan"
hukss..huks...

"Here Without You"

A hundred days had made me older ,since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separateThey disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby,but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me....
The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me.....
Everything I know, and anywhere I go ,it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done ,it get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me ....

hikss..hikss...

satu lagi .... penuh penghayatan nih seharian nyanyi lagu ini...

"One Last Cry"

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelfI saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I?ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I?m down to my last cry

Cry......

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I?ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....

I?m gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I?ve gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lieI guess I?m down
I guess I?m down
I guess I?m down...
To my last cry...

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Can't cry hard enough....

I'm gonna live my life...
like every day's the last , without a simple good-by it all goes by so fast

n now that you're gone..
I can't cry hard enough No I can't cry hard enough For you to hear me know

Gonna open my eyes....
And see for the first time I've let go of you like A child letting go of his kite

There it goes up in the sky... There it goes beyond the clouds
For no reason why I can't cry hard enough
....No I can't cry hard enough-- for you to hear me now

Gonna look back in vain And see you standing there
When all that remains Is just an empty chair

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a Different .... Racism

Perbedaan sudah akrab dalam kehidupan kita sehari-hari.
Tapi akankah perbedaan itu harus memisahkan dua keinginan n dua hati yg sejalan?
hhhh... gue ga habis pikir akan semua ini. egoisme dan keyakinan yg berlebihan yang notabene bisa memecah belah suatu/sekelompok kaum ... apakah itu suatu kebenaran??

Kita ga kuasa dan mungkin ga akan pernah bisa menghilangkan perbedaan itu,yang emang harus dan selalu ada.
mungkin hanya lewat kata hati kita masing-masing,kita bisa menghilangkan perbedaan tsb.

.......... at night ..........
gue terbangun dari tidur yg belakangan ini emang ga ada enak-enaknya. rasa demam masih seperti kemarin malam,tp ga separah kemarin sich.
Rasa kangen yg amat sangat seperti mau meledak dalam dada gue. gue menunggu sesuatu keajaiban yang bisa menghibur dan bisa mengobati luka hati gue. sepertinya dia juga merasakan kepedihan dihati gue,tapi dari sms yang dia kirim sedikit banyak telah ngobatin sakit gue.
thx God ... ada sedikit titik cerah dari obrolan gue semalem, gue akan berusaha dan terus berusaha. ... honey?I'll be waiting... dont hurt me anymore plz...? I cry for u

"Maybe my love would comeback someday ..."

Saturday, January 29, 2005

I'm broken ...

Sad emotion....
Udah lama gue ga nangis seperti semalem,udah lama gue ga merasakan kepedihan yg amat sangat,udah lama dada gue yang tadinya tenang mendadak mau meledak ....
sesuatu yg selama ini ga pernah gue pengen n ga pernah gue harapkan terjadi lagi.

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Can u help me?
Tell me what you want from me
Can u help me?
Tell me why you want to leave
Baby help me
Without you my whole world is falling apart
And I'm going crazy! Lifes a prison when your in love alone ..........

yap! gue lemah saat ini,gue ga tau musti berbuat apa.....
gilaaaaaaaa... kenapa mendadak banget gini?what's wrong?
today i'm down with the sickness again...

"jika itu memang terbaik untuk dirimu,walau berat untukku berpisah denganmu
hapus sudah air matamu,aku mengerti...
ini bukan maumu,ini bukan inginmu... "

Sad Song Today

Giving it all away....

Hey you, living for tomorrow, You sold your dreams for a pocket of change.
Hey you smokin up your sorrow, Just pointing fingers at someone to blame.
Hey you, you turn your back on your children It’s left you in the big burning bed This life’s like livin in the gutter, All this pain just makes you feel dead.
You’re just givin' it all, givin' it all away, You’re just givin' it all, givin' it all away,
Hey, hey, ey yey, y ey, ey, Slow down just look a little closer, You might find that it’s not the end.
You wonder how your life could get better,
When you’re alone you just tear yourself down.
You’re just givin' it all, givin' it all away,
You’re just givin' it all, givin' it all away, You’re just givin' it all, givin' it all away,
You’re just givin' it all, givin' it all away, Hey, hey, ey yey, y ey, yey,
Try and find your better half now, Open your eyes and find yourself.
Hey girl screamin for attention, Once you get it you throw it away.
I’m broken, i’m pickin up the pieces I won’t live in all your mistakes.
I’m just givin' it all, givin' it all away, I’m just givin' it all, givin' it all away.
I’m just givin' it all, givin' it all away, I’m just givin' it all, givin' it all away.
I’m just giving it up, givin it all away, Hey, hey, ey yey, y ey, ey.

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Even when I close my eyes ....

dunno what to do ... everything make me confused!
Tahun 2005 pengen ngeblog lagi, banyak banget unek-unek yg kayanya bakal tumpah ruah disini... let see !!

JëKë [ Something for nothing ]